This sucks!

[kenjari]

I got my third rejection letter today. I won't be going to Northwestern. Damn them. I'm feeling especially low because a female composer who studied with Larry Bell and graduated from Boston conservatory the year before I did is getting her doctorate there. The real kick in the pants is that she graduated with a bachelors, not a masters. So tell me, why did they reject me? Grrrrrr.
[Edit: This is certainly not to suggest that I in any way begrudge this fellow composer her place at Northwestern, or that I feel she doesn't deserve it. She is a very intelligent, cool person, and she writes great music. She absolutely should be there.]
That leaves Peabody. Of course, after three rejection letters I'm having trouble dredging up even a single grain of optimism. I should know by the beginning of next week, but I don't feel any sense of relief or even hope. No, I feel more like I've got the sword of some greek guy hanging over my head.
Tonight is going to be a long night of sulking and eating chocolate.

Comments

[mmeubiquitous.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry. They suck :( I hope you get better news from Peabody.

::HUGS::

[orichalcum.livejournal.com]

I'm really sorry. Try and hold onto your own belief in yourself and your abilities, and remember that grad school apps are just ridiculously fluky, and rarely reflect anything resembling an accurate evaluation of you. And chocolate is good too. ::HUGS::

[zfarcher.livejournal.com]

Hey...

Have a BIG hug. I am sorry that Northwestern lacked the vision to accept you, but I am absolutely sure that it was NOT because you lack the talent to succeed there. Who knows why one student gets selected and another does not. Again, what I know (because it's as obvious as the ears on my head) is that you had the best talent of anyone I heard at your final concert. Period. And it's not just blowing sunshine because you are my friend. You know that I'm not a great fan of modern music (although I have withdrawn my opinion that they stopped composing in 1892), but I have enjoyed pieces you have wrote. You really seemed to have a better style than everything else I heard.

I don't know what happens next. I certainly hope you get into Peabody, but even if you don't, remember it took an extra year to get into your masters program. I have absolutely no doubt we will eventually be addressing you as Dr. Lubkowski. Keep focused, and keep writing.

[ladybird97.livejournal.com]

*hug*

Oh, I'm sorry, sweetie! That's awful. I hope you get better news from Peabody soon! There is a school out there who will recognize your talent - there must be! I'll have my fingers and toes crossed for you till then.

And I hope the chocolate did a little bit to make you feel better, at least in the short run.

[hca.livejournal.com]

Oh, SUCK.

Carol, I'm so sorry. Don't let them get you down! You have talent and skill, and you will achieve what you're going for. If not this year, next year. Remember Dawn. Three years, twenty-eight applications, and Harvard.

[epilimnion.livejournal.com]

Rejection does suck, but don't let it discourage you. Acceptance to doctoral programs is mysterious. Remember that I was told to give up composing! but did I listen? No. And here I am poised to return to grad school. And the guy that did get to go on at my old school, his music is mediocre (in my humble opinion). I have confidence that Peabody will work out, but even if it doesn't, don't give up. It will happen, if not now, then soon.

[davidsmom1.livejournal.com]

HUGE HUGS. Northwestern has made a terrible mistake. Hopefully Peabody will not make the same mistake. I am really sorry but try not to take it personally. Just because they have not recognized your amazing talent does not diminish said talent one jot. Hang in there. Your doctorate program will find you and then you will be happy. My phone works 24/7 if the chocolate fails to.