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Oregon rejected me, too. No grad school for me this year.
I really wasn't expecting this. All the signs were pointing to yes - I had forged a good connection with one of their professors, I was invited to apply to the Oregon Bach Festival Composer's Symposium, I got in to the aforementioned symposium, I received warm e-mails from the school. I flew three thousand miles to visit. I had started communicating with them about my interest in applying in June. I just can't think of another thing I could have done. There must have been something, but no one was telling me what that was.
So here I am, stuck again for another year, when I'd rather be in school in Oregon. I was (and still am) prepared to make the sacrifices moving across the country would entail. It would be worth it.
So now I've got to go through this all again next year. And I'll be reapplying to Oregon and UMKC at least. I may be angry at them now, but I still like them. Hopefully I'll be able to communicate with their faculty over the summer and find out what I can do to improve my application for next year, find out what it was I turned out to be lacking. At least with Oregon, I can do some of that in person in June.

Date: 2005-04-27 03:01 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] signsoflife.livejournal.com
I'm really sorry.

Date: 2005-04-27 03:05 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] davidsmom1.livejournal.com
Oh Hon, I'm so sorry. I find it hard to believe that you could be lacking anything. If you need a shoulder you know my number. I'm here day or night.

Date: 2005-04-27 04:59 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wildpaletz.livejournal.com
Man, that really deeply sucks! I hope it was something like "this guy isn't taking students this year, but will next year." *hugs*

Date: 2005-04-27 06:52 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hai-kah-uhk.livejournal.com
Aw. Bummer. (I'm not great at expressing disappointment-sympathy, but I'm tryin'.)

My mother used to say, "When God closes a door, he opens a window." We lived in a raised ranch at the time, so I couldn't help but wonder whether God was hoping I'd break my neck in the fall. However, we also had basement windows which were easy to climb up and out of, if one were willing to descend into the basement first. I'm sure there's some wisdom there, even if it's only, "Dandelion, you were a sick and twisted kid."

In any case, I hope the next opportunity that comes your way results in neither a slammed door nor a broken neck.

I'm not being helpful, am I? Sorry.

Dammit.

Date: 2005-04-27 12:42 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ivan23.livejournal.com
I'm really sorry to hear it, kenjari. Remember that it's not necessarily you, just a question of too many applicants for too few slots. Take the time to compose some new pieces - fiery, exotic, rapturous pieces - and dammit, make them have to accept you next year. I know you can do it!

Date: 2005-04-27 12:53 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hca.livejournal.com
Oh, SUCK. And what a shock! I was feeling pretty sure, on your behalf...

Make them feel good and awkward when you're out there in June. And don't forget that duskydawn was rejected from 28 schools over three years before she got into Harvard... You'll get there. You're too talented and hardworking a composer not to. It just may take a while.

Date: 2005-04-27 01:31 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ladybird97.livejournal.com
*hug* Oh, honey. I'm so, so sorry! Like everyone else, I'd been feeling such good vibes from Oregon for you...

I have faith that you will get in somewhere that's right for you. Like you said - the door isn't shut, and you have a crowbar. (And I suppose that if all else fails, you can hit them with the crowbar :)

Hang in there! I know you'll make it!

Date: 2005-04-27 01:34 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] jila.livejournal.com
I'm so sorry to hear that you didn't get in. But I have full confidence that you will get in next year Hang in there.

Date: 2005-04-27 02:02 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] epilimnion.livejournal.com
Well, we talked for a long time last night, and I really don't have anything to add. It sucks that they rejected you this year, especially after such positive feedback. But I have no doubt that you were very close to getting in. just build on that good opinion they so obviously have of you and it will turn into an acceptance.

Date: 2005-04-27 04:31 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] holmes-iv.livejournal.com
Ah, crap. :-(
Nothing much else to say, really. You seem to be doing much better at maintaining a positive attitude than I can imagine myself doing in a parallel situation, for which I congratulate you—and I hope the schmucks faculty at UMKC and UO also note that as a positive for the next time around.

Date: 2005-04-27 10:37 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] zfarcher.livejournal.com
Pocking idiots...

I'm sorry you got put off for a year. And, I would guess there is not much of a bright side to all this, but I think it's cool that you are going out there in June. You will get a chance to wow them with your charm, wit, great talent, and deadly assassination techniques!

Anyway, keep trying. And as to a possible bright side... it'll be easier to get a Mac&Cheese again next year...

Date: 2005-04-28 02:40 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] zfarcher.livejournal.com
BTW, You should come down to CT this weekend for hugs and hitting things...

I Grok

Date: 2005-05-02 04:23 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] duskydawn.livejournal.com
As she said: 3 years, 28 rejections, 1 acceptance. It only takes one.

You know what you want, you're passionate, driven and unflagging. You are willing, able and boldly going forth. You'll make it. Trust me, I know.

Not one iota of doubt. Period.

Go You!